A garden state day

   "All these squawking birds won't quit!" ~the shins.... This is my day. I'm struggling to keep my upbeat outlook on life floating. I've been in a mood lately, or so my guys tell me. The change I am looking for is not coming quickly enough for my liking. I keep wondering how I can speed up my changes but the universe seems to slow me right back down again. Maybe it's trying to tell me i'm missing something. Maybe I need to stop and look around a bit.
  I love the part in the movie garden state when they go to get the necklace from that guy that lives next to the infinite abyss. They live in a tiny cozy home and he is the keeper of that infinite abyss and is happy, very happy. Maybe this is me? My mind being my infinite abyss, so to speak. I may never get to the bottom of things but I can still be happy. Excepting my imperfection, just the way it is. If I change to much, if i fill up my abyss with things I try to be. Will I bury myself with change?  Something is telling me to slow it all down. I hope I have an ending like garden state. A frustrated scream followed by a kiss in the rain and then the realization I can have what i want and everything will be fine. Ah well.